Be ambarassed of yourself😳

I´ve come to the conclusion that one of the worst feelings you can have as a person is the feeling of stagnation.

A term most commonly used in economics which means:

A prolonged period of little or no growth

Which in our world would be something like “surviving”.

Though it’s importante to mention the difference between living and surviving

Living requires a purpose and aspiring it on a daily basis. It means your actions are led by your goals and you’re motivitation flows from your desire to achieve it.

Surviving is exactly the opposite. It means surviving “biologically”, and that’s it.

It’s a dark and dull journey; No fun, no enjoyment, no dreams, no goals, only comfort and certainty.

It may sound dreadful and that’s becuase it is. Yet, most of the people chose this life above the other.

Why?

The only conclusion that I’ve found is that the endless journey of personal improvement is a long and strenous trip, which requires being umcomfortable while also destroying yourself in the process. And as you might imagine, that’s not a great pitch to sell it to people.

Unfortunately we’ve romanticized self growth throughout the internet. We’ve led people to believe that self growth is a beautifull journey of calm and bliss with endless amounts of hoy and peace, but treality is much further away from this.

It’s a journey of self destruction, of facing umcomfortable situations as well as fronting our fears.

All of that in order to create a new version of ourselves, a better one.

So that in the end, we can look back at who we were, and be ashamed, not with remorse, but with shame.

Because we understand that learning is a process and if we don’t feel shame of who we were, did we actually improved? Or are we staying the same?